The story is a true one that had happened to me, I swear. I want to let all know and think again that what is real love? Is it the two people living together? Or is it the two persons who are partners and share something equal together?

I am Thai living in Bangkok. My family is quite rich. But it is not because of me, it is because of my parents who make it. I have once had a girlfriend but it was over because she behaved inappropriately in many ways that made me and her cannot live together. She was very flirtatious. We graduated with Master Degree together. She liked sleeping with a guy who was not her own lover. She did not like anything old. She already had me but she slept with my friend. The day I caught her cheating was the day when she was sleeping with my friend at my own house. Now I had finished with her and with my friend. At present, I only work for a company and after finishing work, I go with my colleagues for a little party. There are some women come to me both at work and outside; but they are not my type. Until one day, I just wanted to go to “that place”, you know what place I am talking about? I am talking about brothel.

Because of the loneliness, that day I went out alone. When I reached there, the pander came to me and talked to me and introduced me to a lady; she is white, looks very clean, tall, and beautiful. I would like to use false name to her as “Dao”. After finishing talking to her, then I brought her to the room. We both finished sex in that room. She told me that she was from Chiang Mai. She came to look for work in Bangkok to send money to her family but could not find any job; so she went to apply for work in the factory and had salary for 5 thousand. Unfortunately, she was raped by the factory manager and a lot of boy colleagues molested her then she could not take it no more, so she quitted from work and looked for another job. With no money left, some day she had to eat only one mean then slept in the train station or bus station. One day, she saw the notice for recruiting for work at one food store, then she went to apply. But again, she was raped by the owner. When the owner’s wife knew this, she was fired. She had no choice, then she went to apply for work in this massage parlor. I told this long story about her because I want everybody to know her origin before knowing my story. For me, after listening all about her, then I feel pity on her. I believed some, didn’t believe some. That day, I went home but missed her often, I missed her like I cared her. This feeling was like a love feeling. I could not stop my heart thinking about her. I tried to stop by telling myself that she is a prostitute. I tried to do many things to erase her out of my mind, do you think I am a mean one.

Until one day, I went to that massage parlor again. The pander told me that she did not come to work many days ago. That day, I didn’t have a lady, I went to see my friend instead.

The next day, I came to this massage parlor again. The pander told me again that she had not come to work yet and offered me a new girl. I told no. I tried to ask about telephone number to reach her but the pander told me no. (Or she might have but she did not want me to contact her because the massage parlor would lose some income)

I almost erase her out of my mind already. One day, I went to the other parlor, do you believe me? I met her at such parlor. Then I chose her to go with me in the room. I asked her that why not work at the same parlor. She told me that she was lowered the price and some customers physically hurt her while having sex. She allowed me to see her bruise. I felt shocked. Why these men hurt lady? So, I just tried to ask her that if one day, there is one man love her, will she stop working like this? She told me that it could not be possible until her parents are ok. She wanted her parents to live comfortably. She wanted to build a house for her parents who are very old. She could stand it. She was very sad when talking about this. She told that there would not be any man could accept her if he knew that she was once a prostitute. If one day she died, then no one would know her. That day, I went to bed with my thought that why this lady who work as prostitute does care about her parents, but a lady who graduated with Master Degree want to sell herself in exchange of luxurious stuff. I could not stop admiring her. I thought that I good girl like her with real gratitude to her parents why must face this bad destiny. There might be many men think like me that one day if the financial status is stable, the thing we want is not a beautiful, nice, good looking girl, but we want a girl who will be kid’s mother. For me, I can easily find a girl to sleep with but it is really hard to find a good girl to be a good mother. Many girls today like luxurious stuff and cheat men. For a girl to be a mother, it is not necessary that she never had a man before. She is not have to be beautiful in the eyes of others. But now I am really interested in this prostitute girl. She won my heart.

The following day, I came to this parlor again. I went to the room with her but I didn’t have sex with her. I asked her where she go in the day, she replied me that she sleeps during the day because she works until 4 am. And get up at 4 p.m. I told her that in the future she could sleep early. She was surprised and asked why. I didn’t answer but smile. Then I went to ask the pander about the price to buy her out.

The following night, I went to this parlor at 9 p.m. I was glad that I saw her and I told that “Today, Dao, you don’t have to work here, just come out with me”. The pander also told her that she can go, and told that I am a good person. She is surprised and asked that where to go. I told her that she would know this soon. The pander just spoke in a kidding way that “don’t be too hard or she might not able to stand it”. I was a little shy. After driving out, I brought her to Bai Yok Building to have dinner with her, looking out of the window at night of Bangkok, the view is quite romantic. I asked her that did she every come to the place like this. She told that “Never, why brought me here, it was not appropriate to bring me here because I am just a folk lady”. I replied that I would bring her to this place every night, to travel Bangkok at night together. Then at midnight I would send her in the room and she did not have to work in that parlor again, she could sleep early and get up in the morning like other people.

We had contacted like this. Dao then did not come to that parlor again. And I paid money to the parlor every night. It was quite a lot of money, but it was ok. for me. It was almost two months that we met like this. Then I asked her that how much she send money back to her family. She replied that thirty thousand baht. So, I offered that If she had thirty thousand baht to send back to the family, is that enough? Will she stop working? She just replied that “Since you brought me to the place like here for almost two months, I did not want to come back to such parlor again but if you are bored at me, I have to go back”. I replied with sad looking… I pulled her into my arm and told her t hat just enough, and told her that she doesn’t have to work there anymore. I told her to go back to the home with me. I will take care of her and her parents. She cried and told me that she feel thankful. She had never thought that she would have this good man.

After that day, I brought her to live in my house at Sukhumvit where my parents did not live. We live together for 9 months. Then I realized that she was a very good one, she was a very good house keeper, she works very good at house, she cooks for me. She promises to me that she will cook food more and more delicious for me every day. She will take care of me in everything. She goes to the department store together, but she does not want expensive things at all. She often looks down on herself in that she should not use these expensive things. By the way, today I have her and I am very happy. I give money to her and she sends to her parents. She let me to send such money to her parents. I have a chance to meet her parents who are very old, her parents did not know that what does she work in Bangkok.

Sometimes, I myself once thought that did I do the right thing? If I marry her who had a bad history before, the thing I fear is that my relatives would not accept. I could not answer if they ask what is her work and I would not tell that she was a prostitute before. I am afraid that one day we would be separated because of this. However, I know this is love, a real love. I met a right girl for me but may not for people around me. Do I have to care others if I would keep on this love?